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God, I hate living in a conservative area. I'm not even talking about the laws and blatant transphobes. More so the 80% of people who are transphobic but try to hide it. I go to college, and it feels like barely fuckin anyone shows me common courtesy. I'll try to make small talk, I'll try to go to clubs and make friends, yet it feels like no matter how much I try to talk to them (just basic shit too, like saying hi, or if I see them in the kitchen I'll ask what they're making. Not like I'm asking super fuckin personal shit) I have to be the one to keep the conversation going, and if I stop they stop. They don't say hi on their own accord, they don't do anything.

Well, they do pretty good at looking at me funny when I wear a bra or makeup or whatever. Fucking everyone does a good job at that on my campus. Like christ above, can't be fucked to say hi to me, but you totally have time to laugh about me behind my back.

I'll give great presentations in class (they aren't perfect by any means, but they're pretty damn good), and no one will engage because "oh my god she said the trans word!" it feels like. Either that or fucking everyone is just an unmotavatived sad sack, but somehow I find that hard to believe.

I just feel so isolated from everyone. Like there's nothing I could do that'd ever make them actually see me as a woman. And they'll always see me as some circus act that's not to be talked to, only laughed at.

God, people need to just get over themselves. They're normally really great, but it feels like the second the vast majority of people see a trans person, they just flip out.

- Luna V.W.S.